Worries

It is no secret that I am a worrier. I worry about finances. I worry about the economy. I worry about my son and Joy. I worry about all sorts of things. Right now, I am worried about two of my sweet pets. My cat, Smokey, has been sick for a couple of days. Very sick. I am taking him to the vet today. Hopefully just a UTI, but it could be a host of other things, according to VetMD on the web. My other worry is about my Max dog. He is getting old. An official senior citizen. He has hip displaysia, which makes it harder for him to get around. Last night was a good night for him. I got his food dish, with his special food, and he was RUNNING in circles, waiting for me to set it down! It was so good to see him act like a puppy again. I would do anything if I could turn back time, and bring his puppyhood years back again....Not possible, so the best I can do is try to make him as comfortable as possible. I try to give him small pleasures that he can enjoy. I do know he loves having his food bowl brought to him so he can eat laying down on his bed. I dread the day when the time comes to make the hard decision that the pain is too great for him to bear. Max and I have talked about it, and he promised to let me know when it is time....That day will change me forever and ever. Until then, I will love him with all my heart....sweetly, gently, and with great tenderness....

Wow

Wow! I lost the password to this blog a looong time ago. Then I just kinda forgot about it. Must be old age creeping up on me. How delightful, though, to go back and read thoughts from two or three years ago!

What's been going on since then? Lots. But not much of anything really. I am happy. Happier than I have ever been? Maybe. I don't know. I have been blessed to have had some very happy times in my life. What I can definitely say now though, is that I am as happy now as I have ever been. I am comfortable with myself and my life. I have dreams I still hope to achieve. I have dreams for Joseph. Dreams for myself. Dreams for the world.

There comes a time in everyone's life when you step back and evaluate where you are, what you have accomplished, and where you are heading. I believe everyone has regrets. Anyone who says they don't are either trying to fool you or fool themselves. The key is to limit the regrets you have. I have learned to live with the regrets I have. Sometimes, things are just out of your hands. Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself. And Heaven knows, you have to learn to forgive others. Not always the easiest thing in the world to do....but worth it in the end.

Anyway, I am happy to have found my own little "Dear Diary," again, so that I can record a few random thoughts, lose the password, forget about the existence of the blog for a while, find it again, and smile at the thoughts that pass through my head.

JC