Love

Can anyone define true love? Some people think they can, but very few actually know what love really is. To me, love is having someone else's happiness be truly more important than your own. I can truly define love. I have loved many people in my life. Several that I have loved truly. The details of how I know this, I will keep to myself. Suffice it to say that I have put their needs and wants above my own. I have protected their secrets so that they could move on with their life in the direction they need to go. I have let go when I wanted to hold on. I have stood by as they moved onto to areas they thought they wanted or needed to go, knowing it was the wrong way. Who am I to say what will make someone happy? What will fulfill them? People are essentially selfish creatures. I am happy to say I am not one of them. I could have destroyed several lives with my own selfishness, but I didn't. I could have broken many hearts along the way, but it isn't my job. Instead, I sit back and pray for the ones I love/loved to find what it is to give them the peace and happiness in their lives that will complete them. This gives me peace.

My life is certainly not the fairy tale I once thought it would be when I was a child. It isn't even the happily ever after I thought it would be when I was a young adult. What it is is peaceful, happy, satifsfying, and full of true love. :-)

This time of year

It seems like just yesterday that I was writing on this blog. And yet four and a half months have passed. And here it is...the holidays are once again upon us! Working in a restaurant, particularly with a bakery, make for busy busy times at the holidays. It makes me long for the days when I was a stay at home Mom. I would spend weeks planning and shopping for holiday meals. Days testing out new recipes and reviewing old ones. I still do that. I just have to fit those things into the corners of my life now. In fact, I don't even know if we will be able to celebrate Thanksgiving this year on the actual holiday. No matter. It is the thought that counts. Besides, while it is nice to have a holiday set aside for giving thanks for all the people and blessings in our lives, we really should do that every single day. I know not a day goes by that I don't thank God for all the blessings in my life. So what difference does it make what day it is that we actually eat the turkey?

Happy holidays friends!!!

Jill

Did it again...

Well, I did it again. Pretty much forgot about the existence of this blog. I don't know why I have such a hard time keeping up with it. It is such a comfort to me.

I sat and read through all of the posts I have made in the past. I smiled a lot...I cried a little...I hurt some. Kind of like life, I guess.

Life right now is hectic. I guess that is the only excuse I have for not keeping up. Work is work. Kind of like a roller coaster ride. At this point, the best I can do is to say I am happy to have a job. Would love to transfer to a better location, but it just isn't in the cards right now.

Was hoping to make the trip back to the Jersey shore this year to spend time with family and friends, but I don't think that is a possibly this year. Very disappointing. I was looking forward to seeing everyone...particularly those from my Father's side of the family that found me and let me know they have always loved and wanted me.

I will also miss visiting my beloved ocean this year. There is something about the waves crashing to shore, the feel of the sand under my bare feet, and the smell of the salty breeze that restores me and heals my soul in ways people don't understand. Here's to next year!

Home life is good. Solid. Healthy. Still kickin' it with my girl and happy to be doing so!

I pinky promise to be better at keeping up with the thoughts that run through my head. I don't know that anyone thinks they are worth reading (or maybe even having) but me. But hey...that's what matters here.